Dear Evelyn, Happy ALMOST three months sweet baby! It is so hard to believe that we have had you for almost 13 weeks. You have grown and changed so much. There is a whole lot that I want to remember about these first thirteen weeks, and hold onto, because I know that soon enough it will seem like forever ago. First of all, thank you for having so much grace with your daddy and I as we have learned how to maneuver these first three months as parents. We clearly have it down now. :) haha. But honestly, you have been such a sweet baby, and helped us figure things out!
In this last month there is so much about you that I want to remember forever. You have taught me how to really stop and enjoy small moments and little victories....to take them in and remember. I want to remember how you smile your gummy smile so big when we go to wake you up, and how your daddy and I race to get there first! :) I want to remember how that lip pokes out and face totally changes when you are about to fuss. I want to remember how nice it is to rock you and your freshly-bathed self to sleep at night. That smell.....I want to bottle up that smell. I want to remember how you suck your paci and it bobs up and down so quickly in the beginning, gradually slows down, and eventually your mouth falls open and that paci slips out cause you are so tired. I want to remember how kissable your cool little cheeks are. I want to remember how when I sing to you, you seem to join right in with your little coos and noises. I want to remember how you give the "stink eye" to us sometimes. :) I want to remember how it makes you smile when you see me pretend to yawn. I want to remember how you play with your hair when you nurse. I want to remember that in these last couple of weeks you have found your thumb and seem to prefer it. I want to remember how in the last three months I have seen you become more independent, and want to play by yourself some. I want to remember how sometimes you just only want mama, but how you have such a love for your daddy too! I want to remember how you smile so big when daddy talks to you. I want to remember how he calls you "little bit". I want to remember how you have started to squirm, kick, and splash in that bath each night. I want to remember how much you dislike being taken out of the bath each night! haha. I want to remember our middle of the night chats, just you and I. I want to remember how sometimes when I read the Scripture in your room to you while I change your diaper or rock you, you seem to hang on to my words. I want to remember how you have sat on the counter in your bumbo and watched me cook dinner while dancing to disney music. You gave me some crazy looks! I want to remember what a privilege it is to hold you, feel your little heart race against my chest, and pray for you. I want to remember those fast little baby breaths you take. I want to remember your first giggle, and how I just about lost it. :) I want to remember how I feel like the "spit up stage" will never end. I want to remember how much you love to watch your crazy older cousins run around. I want to remember how I have loved seeing you change and grow, but in that same moment want to keep you little.
There is also so much I want you to know. I want you to know how much I love you. I want you to know how being your mama has changed me, and changed my heart. I want you to know how hard it was for me to drop you off at BSF in that nursery for the first time yesterday, and how no one knew, but I was choking back tears. :) I want you to know that I love that I have gotten to share the gospel with you already. I want you to know that I pray that it takes root in your heart at an early age. I want you to know how much I love seeing you every single day. I want you to know that some days are hard, and sometimes your mama doesn't have a clue what to do. I want you to know I have cried so many tears thinking about how much I care about you, and how much I love you. We will blame it on postpartum. I want you to know that I pray for you so often. I pray that you grow big and strong. I pray that you stay healthy. I pray that you are kind, and that you have sweet friends. (You will have so many based on all these babies surrounding you! :) ) I pray that you love God's Word and hide it in your heart. I pray that as your mama, I am a good example for you, and that you see me walk closely with Jesus. But mostly, I pray that you know Him, and know Him soon!
You are SO loved by SO many! You have been prayed for, for such a long time! You have changed our lives, and made it feel so full! You have brought new challenges, and taught mommy and daddy lots of patience and tough lessons. You are an absolute JOY and my best girl!
I love you, my sweet Ev!
Mama
